The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim

 

2

Immortality is not found in the body,

Nor in the time-bound legacies of history books.

It is ever in the seamless awareness of the indivisible moment.

It is the eternal You, that peers out through the senses,

Into the dreamtime they and mind create.

 

* * * *

To learn from history is one thing, to allow the past to dominate the present, another.

Every generation must play the hand they are dealt, in the time they are allotted.

Your ancestors had their time, you have yours, your progeny will have theirs.

The traditions, the patterns, that worked at one point, may not in another.

To grapple with the present with a mind that is present is the highest order.

 

 

4

Our kind seems headed,

Toward an unprecedented cataclysm,

And in the grand schema of things, does it really matter?

Each of us answers that eternal question in the way we carry out our daily lives,

But it is synergistically, that the dice are cast and futures told.

So down the fated river we bob and weave,

All alone, all together,

Players in the history of mind.

 

* * * *

Humanity is a species fixated on the past,

On history, tradition, ritual, formula, this concept or that.

How challenging it is to view the streaming moment with fresh, clear eyes.

Our narcissistic vision is veiled by all we think we know.

We are blind to the mystery of Eden.

 

 

5

History is about individuals and all their groupings,

The synergies of every blend of cooperation and competition,

All played out on an eternal stage, indifferent to existence or extinction.

 

 

6

We may baptize the source however we please,

Envisage it any way we are inclined.

The only genuine curiosity,

Is our believing it really matters enough,

To squander the rest of history, battling over the vanity of it all.

 

 

24

 

Humankind has expended a great portion of its recent so-called civilized history,

Battling over the electromagnetic spectrum: wavelengths, frequencies, vibrations, light, sound.

Continuously struggling, arguing, destroying – over what is but a mere particle of the indivisible mystery,

That our sensory dwellings are capable of perceiving, in the patterning of all things manifest.

How baffling, that we have not fathomed a greater vision of our place in it all.

 

 

31

When the engines of industry cease to run,

When the cloud of technology inevitably evaporates,

When resources can no longer sustain the advantages they have fostered,

Those who are prepared for the worst, are more likely to survive.

Hoping for the best, only takes any historical epoch so far.

And at some point, Old School will ascend again.

Not a question of if, but how and when.

 

 

32

 

So many experiences, so much history, so much knowledge, so much blather.

Nothing more than the filter of imagination given daily reality,

Cloaking the ever-present now from its Self.

 

 

40

History is a capricious thing.

It generally only reminisces the survivors,

And in the rise and fall of all things, everyone eventually loses.

So, what does that say about the whirl,

And all its ado?

 

 

42

There is likely a fair-to-middling amount of history remaining,

For humankind to play out its ceaseless passions,

And, alas, there is not much money,

On it being very pretty.

 

 

43

What is human history but ceaseless struggle,

Over whose imagination should reign the moment.

Who was the very first to come up with the fanciful notion,

That we two-leggeds might someday, somehow, all come together,

Into one big happily-dancing-Age-of-Aquarius family?

Out-and-out balderdash, to be sure.

 

 

44

History, a bottomless grab bag,

In the vast immensity of imagination.

Nothing more than whatever comes to mind.

 

 

58

Once all memories have dissolved,

Will anything have ever really happened?

All history is but a fleeting game of make-believe.

 

 

60

History has never repeated itself.

It merely recycles the same patterns.

 

 

61

Once a placid, winding river,

The roar of the falls is now very near,

And resounding nearer each and every moment.

Who will survive the chaotic mayhem,

In the harsh rocks below?

Who will journey,

The waterway of history,

Beyond the coming Great Fall,

And what stories will their destinies tell?

 

* * * *

Who will be the last historian,

The last chronicler of the human paradigm?

Who will be the last to discern, to set down all that has passed,

Since the first recording of humanity’s dream?

 

 

62

Who first came up with the idea that God was a separate deity,

And that it must be feared and worshipped and kowtowed to daily?

Who else but someone craving the usual suspects: power, fame, fortune.

And that, along with a few other trifling details, is human history in a nutshell.

 

 

68

This fleeting, ever-changing dream of time,

Is just another space between the lines,

In history books yet to be written.

 

 

69

History is full of true believers,

Who every day in so many ways,

Spin time its mind-bound way.

 

 

75

The unspeakable dogmatic vanity,

That could arise from this body of work,

Is worth yet another caution to any future readers.

History is replete with an endless array of absurdities and horrors,

From many a well-meant and harmless intention.

And to use these many thoughts,

In any way dogmatic,

Would be to entirely miss the point.

 

 

84

Today’s heroes, today’s villains,

Will be but food for worms in some tomorrow.

What histories they played out, what memories they inspired,

Are entirely at the whim of those with pen and paper,

And the inexplicable inclination to remember.

 

 

86

 

Have you ever really existed as more than a figment of imagination?

Are you really anything more than a fleeting ghost of future past?

And what is history but a rolodex of memories soon forgotten.

 

 

87

History is chock-full of potholes and pitfalls,

Into which those who follow in time,

Only occasionally sidestep,

For the very briefest of whiles.

 

 

93

In the theater of time,

The present has always been,

At the mercy of its historical context.

 

 

97

It has always been a modern world.

All history is the make-believe,

Of minds bound in time.

 

 

108

Death makes all history absurdly irrelevant.

All tradition is the delusion of imagination.

 

 

110

Knowledge is such endlessly piecemeal thing.

History has many faces, many flavors, many truths.

It is an arbitrary leviathan, from the first story to the last.

Only as accurate as the filters that shape it into words.

 

 

122

Words are only as enduring as there are readers.

 

 

132

History has never once repeated itself.

It is patterns that play out over and over again,

Across every time, every geography.

 

 

143

 

History is replete with the ideals of truth, justice, and equity for all,

Being blown asunder by the mortal tempest of me, myself, and I,

From every crook and cranny of this swirling play of stardust.

 

 

154

History is the play,

Of graven images of every sort.

Forget everything.

Be.

 

 

165

 

Who will be the last historian, to chronicle the human paradigm?

Who will be the last witness, to the dystopian fall of our kind?

 

* * * *

To hold out hope that humanity,

Will achieve some sort of utopian ideal,

Only shows how little is understood of the history,

Make-believe that it well is, into which we have all been cast.

 

 

174

 

The greatest view of the history of all manifestation,

Would be the synthesis of every universe born of conscious design.

It would include a seamless wander through the matrix, through every nook and cranny,

To which the mystery of imagination, is witness in every way possible.

All within the infinite, indivisible, timeless stillness,

Of that source prior to all naming,

That source prior, even,

To that which many call God.

 

 

184

What a millstone any history, any memory,

To unfurling freely in the unfolding moment.

 

 

194

 

Once you discern all history, not just some of it, is imagined,

What is there to do but wander through it,

Wondering all the while,

At all the much ado about nothing.

 

 

200

A child has no history, no future;

Only the immediacy of the unfolding present,

To which he or she gives full attention.

Let go your world, your universe,

And rediscover your innocence.

 

 

220

 

Death will merely be the finale, to your unique translation of history.

 

* * * *

Dogma is the kool-aid of history.

 

 

222

A splinter of history, in every mind.

 

 

237

 

To carry history in your head, or not to carry history in your head,

Is the conscious choice between the stagnation of memory,

Or the eternal life of moment-to-moment awareness.

 

 

243

 

At some point, so much history, becomes so much gibberish.

Now is the time, and those who abide in the present,

Are at the forefront, at the tip of the spear,

In the epoch of human adaptation.

Learn what you are able,

From all that history has to offer,

But do not let it weigh upon the many decisions,

That will soon be required to survive civilization’s unraveling.

 

 

244

 

If you cannot examine the cosmos in your mind,

Then your destiny is just one conditioned journey or another,

Dictated by the history, the make-believe, in which you have been steeped.

 

 

245

This time, too, will one day likely be called ancient,

Assuming anyone is still around and about,

Pondering such things historical.

 

 

247

 

All histories are really nothing more than selected snapshots of perception,

Permeated by the unknowable awareness of the seamless indivisibility.

 

 

250

What a mockery of accuracy,

Hollywoods, Bollywoods, Broadways,

And other entertainments so often make of history.

But then again, how accurate has any history ever really been?

 

 

255

Whatever is left of this passion play,

Is really just the scratchy record of history,

Repeating the same predictable song over and over.

Many would happily re-shape the garden into a kinder place,

But, alas, the biological imperative will out.

Ignorance is the cancer.

 

 

256

 

Into every account, every chronicle, every memoir, every history,

The motive, the agenda, the intention, of the writer,

Should be very carefully gauged.

 

 

266

No bird has ever written down even one chirp.

Nor a dog a bark, nor a cat a meow, nor a badger a growl.

This dreamtime would be without even one history,

Had humankind not imagined otherwise.

 

 

268

It is history that whittles away innocence.

 

 

272

The tides of history are daily swirling stronger.

 

 

275

History is a river of anonymity.

 

 

283

History is replete with the same old regurgitation.

 

 

285

 

Of history, what can be said but that it is a theater of the absurd.

 

 

300

The chronicles of time are nothing more than vapor.

All history begins decaying long before it is written.

 

 

311

 

As seen from perhaps the darkest before-the-storm points in human history,

Given the nature of our kind, is it even at all possible, that an enlightened paradigm,

Might, like the fabled phoenix of mythical origin, rise up from the debris?

Away from the busy din, idealistic notions are so easily spun.

 

 

318

Why be bound by any historical notion?

Why be crimped by any mythology or tradition?

Why not be entirely free in the sovereignty of awareness?

It is only fear that ordains you acquiesce to any artificial limitation.

 

 

323

There is no formula in rearing children.

Everyone has their own approach to parenting,

Some for good, some for ill.

And from it all,

Human history unfolds.

 

 

330

History is the arbitrary highlighting of selected snapshots,

From eternity’s indivisible, ever-graceful streaming.

The crisscrossing of the endless array of ripples,

Which bring notable events to realization.

And from those streaming moments,

New ripples, ever make their way,

In the quantum theater’s dreamtime.

 

 

334

What point being a footnote,

Or even a lengthy chapter in a history book.

Or, perhaps the most terrifying possibility of all things narcissistic,

The front cover on a check-stand magazine rack.

 

 

335

 

The history of humankind is an incalculable archive of every conceivable narrative.

There is really no greater or lesser story; all are equally steeped in imagination.

 

 

350 

 

Those few who manage to stream along in the pure awareness,

Prior to time, prior to space, prior to consciousness,

Are unburdened by any history, whatsoever.

 

 

351

 

Best not to judge other points of history merely through the reflection of your own.

 

 

378

History is written by winners, losers, survivors, abiders;

Whoever makes the effort to set down one version or another.

But sooner or later, all eyes grow dim, and all ears, deaf,

And all chronicles are lost to the winds of illusion.

 

 

392

To gaze across all history with neither need nor want,

Is a freedom even the many gods of old would envy.

 

 

404

As fascinating and absorbing as history,

And all things intellectual are,

They are all imagined,

And therefore, ultimately, unreal.

 

 

412

What good is knowledge, what good is history,

If you have not learned the many lessons offered?

 

 

416

The notion of history is sculpted in countless ways,

Through the never-ceasing, indivisibly eternal now.

 

 

422

Another wave of human history,

Of world history, of universal history,

In which you must play your itsy-bitsy part.

 

 

426

 

Once you are dead and gone, just how important is it, really,

How possible is it, even, that anyone remembers anything about you?

How can a few lines in some history book mean anything at all,

Once the dust has settled behind those unseeing eyes?

 

 

428

New day, same old story.

Without fresh eyes, who can discern,

The newness under every moment’s starry sky?

Without fresh eyes, what are there but regurgitating puppets,

Dancing to the whims of the strings of history.

 

 

437

 

What point will there be to being a footnote in the history books,

When worms are the only things moving about your cranium?

 

 

443

History is opinion laden with many views.

 

 

444

More nonsense for the dustbin of history

 

 

446

 

Why would you really need to believe the mythology,

The folklore, the legends, the customs, the traditions, the history,

All the many perceptions, of any given culture, ultimately real and important,

Including the dreamy sliver of space and time that you call your own?

 

 

448

Do not believe even for a moment,

That anything you have ever spoken or written,

Will significantly modify or change the human paradigm.

Toying with history is an amusing diversion;

Far more than likely futile fare.

 

* * * *

The nuances of any given history are seemingly unfathomable.

Every witness perceives the same things as no one else ever will.

We are all wandering about the same theater in different universes.

 

 

450

Traditions, folklore, myths, legends, parables,

What enticingly brief notions, brief distractions.

Mortality proves the insignificance of all histories.

 

 

452

 

The mind is the immeasurable playground of quantum imagination.

All history, all science, all art, all vocation, all trivia, all anything,

Is but a perpetual dance in a matrix too vast to fathom any edge.

 

 

454

 

Is history that does not eventually point you to your ultimate Self, history worth knowing?

 

 

457

 

There are those who create history, those who regurgitate it, and those who ignore it.

 

 

458

The true scientist, the true historian, the true anything,

Never gives up questing as accurate a rendering,

As their swirl of consciousness can muster.

 

 

459

Why would anyone ever need or want to duplicate,

To imitate another’s life in any way, any shape, any form?

Live your own existence, free of any history, free of any burden.

 

 

468

What are you, but,

A historical collage,

An economic statistic,

An anthropological result,

A psychological adaptation,

A sociological paradigm,

A scientific curiosity.

 

 

473

History tends to raise winners to pedestals,

And spin losers to denigrated, even vilified obscurities.

The true histories, well, how many, if not all,

Are long lost in the sands of time?

 

 

475

Who can out-Wittgenstein Wittgenstein?

Who can out-Schopenhauer Schopenhauer?

Who can out-Aristotle Aristotle?

Who can out-Lao Tzu Lao Tzu?

Who can out-Heraclitus Heraclitus?

Who can out-Kafka Kafka?

Who can out-Buddha Buddha?

Who can out-Plato Plato?

Who can out-Yogananda Yogananda?

Who can out-Aristotle Aristotle?

Who can out-James James?

Who can out-Ram Dass Ram Dass?

Who can out-Ashtavakra Ashtavakra?

Who can out-Watts Watts?

Who can out-Marx Marx?

Who can out-Descartes Descartes?

Who can out-Patanjali Patanjali?

Who can out-Arendt Arendt?

Who can out-Nietzsche Nietzsche?

Who can out-Sartre Sartre?

Who can out-Locke Locke?

Who can out-Thoreau Thoreau?

Who can out-Emerson Emerson?

Who can out-Bacon Bacon?

Who can out-Descartes Descartes?

Who can out-Vonnegut Vonnegut?

Who can out-Krishna Krishna?

Who can out-Hume Hume?

Who can out- Ikkyū Ikkyū?

Who can out-Machiavelli Machiavelli?

Who can out-Comte Comte?

Who can out-Whitman Whitman?

Who can out-Rousseau Rousseau?

Who can out-Russell Russell?

Who can out-Hobbes Hobbes?

Who can out-Foucault Foucault?

Who can out-Kierkegaard Kierkegaard?

Who can out-Mill Mill?

Who can out-Confucius Confucius?

Who can out-Osho Osho?

Who can out-de Beauvoir de Beauvoir?

Who can out-Aquinas Aquinas?

Who can out-Carneades Carneades?

Who can out-Hess Hess?

Who can out-Diogenes Diogenes?

Who can out-Smith Smith?

Who can out-Parmenides Parmenides?

Who can out-Pascal Pascal?

Who can out-Chomsky Chomsky?

Who can out-Thales Thales?

Who can out-Wollstonecraft Wollstonecraft?

Who can out-Muhammad Muhammad?

Who can out-Shankara Shankara?

Who can out-Sina Sina?

Who can out-Derrida Derrida?

Who can out-Epicurus Epicurus?

Who can out-Kant Kant?

Who can out-Aurelius Aurelius?

Who can out-Socrates Socrates?

Who can out-Dewey Dewey?

Who can out-Aristotle Aristotle?

Who can out-Voltaire Voltaire?

Who can out-Hegel Hegel?

Who can out-Holshouser Holshouser?

Who can out-Plate Plato?

Who can out-Socrates Socrates?

Who can out-Heidegger Heidegger?

Who can out-Arendt Arendt?

Who can out-Zoroaster Zoroaster?

Who can out-Jesus Jesus?

Who can out-Camus Camus?

Who can out-Spinoza Spinoza?

Who can out-Krishnamurti Krishnamurti?

Who can out-philosophize the weight of history?

Hemmed in by the sages of the ages, we are, we are.

 

 

478

Pardon me for inquiring, but why do some humans …

Seem to loathe nature and her many creations?

Become so determined to control others?

Go to such extremes to feel happy?

Believe gold so important?

Seem to delight in hurting others?

Partake in so many preposterous notions?

Corrupt the world with so many unproven creations?

Despise so many others simply because they abide by different values?

Become so vain about their bodies that they cloak them with every imaginable costume?

Focus on so many differences when there is so much more in common?

Acquire so much more than they could ever need or use?

Bear children in whom they have little interest?

Create a world so indigent and forlorn?

Learn so little from history,

And are so blind to its reckoning?

 

 

479

 

What would it have been like to only know a tiny slice of this garden world?

To have lived among a small group in forest, a valley, a prairie, a mountain, an island, a desert.

Communicating orally using a unique language spawned by the given geography.

Scratching out an arduous existence with nascent tools and weapons.

Wearing simple attire, living in caves or modest shelters.

Hunting, fishing, gathering, harvesting.

Consuming whatever the niche about you offered.

Gazing up at the boundless unknown in wonder, perhaps in dread.

Weaving stories, establishing traditions, rituals, customs; creating myths, legends, gods.

The prehistoric etchings of what we vainly call the modern, civilized world,

All in the same eternal moment it has always been, will ever be.

 

* * * *

How did we evolve into playing it out in such discordant fashion?

What is this monkey-mind need to believe in anything?

What is this insatiable craving for power, for fame, for fortune?

Here we are, somewhere near or past the summit of our brief history of time,

And where can it possibly go, but into some dystopian nightmare, on a sure road to extinction.

 

 

480

No set of writings, no persona, no group,

Should ever be accepted thoughtlessly as some authority.

Everything should be approached vigilantly, rationally, with a critical eye.

You are captain of the given mind-body to which You are witness.

Take command of your helm, navigate your own course.

History has its station, but You are here now.

 

 

499

 

What is any history but what some storyteller’s imaginary frame of reference,

Coupled with the translation of your frame of reference.

Very dubious from the get-go.